It was exactly one year ago today that I cried when I walked out of my office for the last time after working for 7 years. And today I cried again. Kinsey and I have decided that we're finished nursing (that's a very long story in itself). We're done. As I nursed her for the last time I cried. The crying really has nothing to do with nursing. It's that my baby is growing too fast! Next month she's a year old. Well at the very end of the month, but still next month. Can't I just keep her tiny forever? Keep her in my arms sheltered from this crazy world? She's my little buddy! We do everything (and I do mean EVERYTHING) together. I can count on one hand how many times I've been alone in the last 10.5 mths. But I wouldn't have it any other way. Being a mommy is the best thing ever! And my little buddy thinks I'm the coolest. She loves when I sing and dance. She joins in and giggles. And she doesn't mind all my singing and dancing to Michael Jackson songs that I've been doing lately. Ya, it's not all easy. But it sure is fun way more often than it's hard. My sister tells me it's just all stepping stones. I told her how I felt silly crying about stopping nursing and she said it's the same as when she put her little girl on the Kindergarten bus this year. And it never ends. (I'm sure my mom could tell me that!)
Ah stepping stones! I guess I can't avoid them. So I'll enjoy each day with my Kinsey Baby as she grows into a little girl. I don't want to miss a second!